Monday, September 19, 2011

overwhelming emotions

It has only been a few weeks of the semester, but they have been extremely difficult.  Emotionally, they are almost more than I can bare.  I have such a deep love for people that it literally kills me inside to see them in the state that I have been this semester.  Physically, psychologically, and emotionally.  I have heard intense stories and seen intense cases.  And inside I'm being ripped apart because I love these people so much.
This has been something I've struggled with for a while.  Every time I see a homeless person I want to cry because I just love them.  All this time I've known that nursing is something the Lord wants me to do.  That is why I am here.  Today, the emotional tole has caught up to me.  It's breaking me down and I don't feel strong enough to help these people because they break my heart.  I know that the Lord will never give me more than I can handle, but today it feels like too much.  I don't know how to do it.
I will continue to pray and ask God for strength.  It is going to take everything in me not to give up on this, but it is going to be a battle.  Pray for me as I continue my journey.

Forever and Always

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